Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Hello LOVE Month -- Editors' Note - A little bit extra personal?

The month of LOVE! Oh sweet LOVE. We cherish this month as we hold our loved ones closer for Valentines Day. I especially love this month because of all the pink that fills the stores!

cupcakeMAG will be sharing with you one super fab 1st birthday for my little darling, Kennadi. We can't wait to share the event as soo many have worked so hard to make it possible. We thank you -- you know who you are! 

As always we have some must-read celeb interviews and this is the month our team takes on Mercedes- Benz Fall 2011 Fashion Week in New York City. We will have all the on-site designer interviews, designer reveals, beautiful collections and fab fashions! NYFW also makes it a crazy busy month for us but keeps us going! We can't wait to bring you all the up-to-date daily runway shows, designer interviews and on-site celeb chats!

We also have amazing giveaways and featured bloggers to share this month including an exclusive interview and giveaway with the ladies behind Layla Grayce and so much more! It is going to just be a FABulous month. 

Now - onto the more personal topic for the month. About this time last year I was getting ready to give birth to my third beautiful little girl Kennadi Audrey Monroe (yes, named after Jacqueline, Audrey and Marilyn) - almost a month and half early. Yes, I had her at 35 weeks. Weighing 4lbs 12oz when we left the hospital we were beyond blessed to spend no time in the NICU and leave with our baby girl.

Kennadi, only a few days old. 

Kennadi's Birth Announcement Photo
However, when I got home it hit me how precious and dainty Kennadi really was. I don't know if it was the anxiety of having a preemie and taking care of such a tiny little one or if I was just overwhelmed by the fact that she was so little. I went into serious post partum panic. I don't know if it was quite depression but I remember reaching out briefly on Twitter because I was having such an out of body experience of panic and it was awful, so so awful.

I thank ONE person for truly taking a second to read my tweet and saving me. Yes, saving me. She made me realize I wasn't crazy and things would be normal again shortly. So who is this so FABulous little lady I call my "Post Partum Angel" - she is known as @LaStylistMom on Twitter.

Bethany showed me that there was light at the end of the tunnel. She also taught me that many people go through this and suggested Brooke Shields amazing book "Down Came the Rain". This was a person who tweeted me. A person I had never spoke to before. That second when I got her tweet and her number I called her. She dropped everything to help me and she did. I felt so much better just talking about it. And to do this day, I am so blessed to have had someone like her to just tweet into my life. She will always be a special friend in my life. 

You would think that after having a miracle baby and going through a rough pregnancy I would be beaming with joy but the week or so after deliver was the roughest time of my life. And let me tell you, I was very thankful for my little cocktail of happy pills to get me through those teary nights.

I know this may be a little personal to share but I wanted to put it out there for my readers to see that I am too, human.  I hope I don't loose any of you. We are all human right? I wanted you all to know that it is okay to seek help. Help is good and sometimes what you have to do to make it through another day. Whether it is post-partum or just the stressers of every day life - seeking help and learning on a supportive friend during that difficult time made everything so much better. 

It is a New Year so keep it real my cupcakes and seek help if you need it - it is okay and will make you a better person. That is my February memo to all of you. And remember, I am always an email away! As always, thanks for all your love and support. Lots of love! 


  1. awww, she is just too sweet for words! i love love love her name...so beautiful. i think i cried for two weeks straight after i had my son. i was devastated when i could not breast feed and i would pump to get just 5mls to give to him with a dropper. i knocked it over once and cried hysterically for hours. i am happy to report that my baby boy is now a happy & healthy formula fed baby. i almost teared up just thinking about it =) people come into our lives and forever leave footprints in our hearts...glad twitter brought your dear friend to you.

  2. What a precious baby girl!
    I love her name, as well.
    She is beautiful and you are truly blessed to be able to celebrate her one year birthday soon. Enjoy every second of it!
    And twitter has brought some beautiful women into my life, as well. I will forever be grateful for the many women that have said things to me that have helped me through a tough day. They will never know how much they mean to me! I am glad you had that experience, as well.

  3. I think it is great that you are putting your situation out there for others to relate. I have seen a lot of love and support on Twitter. Such a great thing to be able to reach out to someone you don't even "know" in a time of need and have them be there for you. I think we put a lot of pressure on ourselves after childbirth and it is so important to talk to someone about what is happening.

  4. thanks for sharing! I think that all women learn from others experiences. I had two miscarriages and found that women really don't talk about it. I told my friends and others b/c I would want them to talk to me about about it. Happy 1st Birthday to your sweet girl! Babies are miracles. pop over for a cute pinafore giveway! thecoolkidsblog.com

  5. Happy Birthday to your baby girl ! what an amazing story of her journey to get here ! I too am a mother of a premature baby who is now 7 years old i had him @ 27 weeks weighing 2 lbs. So when you say Miracle baby i so understand and thats great you found a wonderful friend thru twitter it would have been a big help for me back then ! and BTW i love your blog & follow all ur tweets too.

  6. Thanks for being so real and sharing with us. It's very brave of you and I'm definitely an avid follower now. I can't imagine the panic of caring for a preemie, all of mine were on the large side(9-10 lbs.), it's good to know that there are complete strangers out there willing to help. I think that's one of the main reasons we're here on this earth...to help one another. Hope the first birthday is blessed!....cupcakes are on the way:)

  7. Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart for all your comments and sweet thoughts! I truly appreciate each and every one of you so much. Thank you for taking the time to read my story -- I hope it reaches those who need help. You all are just so amazing. Thank you so much! I am deeply touched.


  8. I loved reading this Casi...I think until you are a mother it can be hard to describe certain feelings to people because they just might not understand. Kennadi is adorable and well all your girls are! You are such an amazing mom, I don't know how you do it all! I love you and your February memo!


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